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Alejandra
24 years old
Chile
It was when I was 6 months old when I had to go to the doctor for they found out that I was lame and that I didn't have the movements of the left side of my body. But it was only at 9 years old that they told me that my infirmity had no healing and that it was a paralysis caused for lack of oxygen at birth. I believe that what most hurt me besides from knowing the state I was, was to see the cry of my mother and to feel her pain. It was then that I believed that God didn't existed and if He did He was an evil God that forgot about me. I kept bitterness and hate for the jokes, the shame and all the tears I shed. For not being able to dance, not being able to ride a bicycle or do any kind of other sport like all the other girls did. Besides from my paralysis, I suffered abandonment and I physically abused many times as a child. I grew up almost alone and without affection. All my life I lived with feeling of fear, abandonment and even tried to suicide.
I had this hate and bitterness against God and life for very long. I hid myself from the people and I felt abandoned by my father because of my infirmity. I felt really lone and even when I smiled in reality my heart was empty. I hid myself from everyone and everything in the heavy metal rock music and in my deep loneliness. At the age of twenty all hell broke loose when I found out that my dad wasn't my real dad and that my real dad was my uncle (I was a fruit of an adultery), a child abuser hunted by the police. When that news came to me at 20 years old, and that I was lied to all my life I sank deeply into alcohol constantly waking up in the morning and not even remembering what happened all night for alcohol coma.
Everything would take a change when I would arrive from Chile to Spain with my lovely boyfriend who really is the only one who supported me and loved me. As I got in Spain I went to church just to make company for him (his friend invited him). I had no will to be there and I was confessing to be an atheist. It was then when pastor Alfonso prayed for me and started saying things about me that was impossible for him to have known it, because it was the first time I ever saw him. I felt something different and wept.
Later in the week, there was another service that I went so at that service I asked God in my thoughts if He loved me or if He had abandoned me. Pr. Pedro got close to me and said "He always loved you and never abandoned you!" I felt something over my body that put all my hair up, when I opened my eyes I was on the floor full of tears.
On that same night after the service Pr. Pedro came to pray for me to be healed of my infirmity and for my left arm and left leg to grow (they were about 4 centemeters shorter, my left side didn't develop because of the paralysis and I had very few movements). I looked at him with a little unbelief but when he put his hands on my leg and started to pray I felt something heavy on my leg and it grew instantly before our eyes and the camera. Than the same happened with my arm. I can't explain what I felt or what I thought but what I know is that that was the best answer that God really existed and loved me.
Today Alejandra is healed of her infirmity, rejoicing in her new family in Christ and her new dream is to be a preacher to the nations and to speak before the thousands.
Alejandra
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